you know, i might have hurt your feelings.

people does mistakes every once in a while.

you dare to look into my eyes and tell me you have never done any mistakes before?

i did my part by apologizing and im gonna continue DOING MY PART

where i wont interfere in your life anymore.

and thats fast having me replaced.

seriously.

:)

you really showed me how wrong my choices are. thankyou!

what more can i say.

i just got to admit that, all this while i have been very immature.

everyone's word about me was right.

i dont ask for more, i cant, not even forgiveness

not a second chance

not anything.

i just want to say i'm sorry.

was suppose to be a wonderful monday! with no class, no worries and nothing.

but, argh! no electricity!

have you ever listen to everything is beautiful by anne marie boskovich?

her song rocks actually.

meaningful song actually! :D

and yes, we are all buried in the same question.

are you happy enough?

why cant we all look back to what we used to have. is enough

you dont have to be too happy. close your eyes, and feel

actually the answer is right in front of you. the happiest thing in life

is just right in front of your eye, in front of everyone's eyes,

but why cant we see it?

yesterday, was awesome. spent almost half of my day in church!

:) and guess what!

it feels good being in church again after so long.

i have been missing for 2 weeks.

it just feel good!

and i realise, when im in church, i just dont feel the problems coming to me

i feel safe! i feel nice! i feel me!

but things turn the other side when im home.

maybe siva is right.

i need holiday. but isnt 2 weekends on a island is enough?

no, thats not the holiday im looking for.

a better one i guess.

and im out.

its been the 5th day since im having this one kind feeling, where things just dont seem to be right.

everything was once so beautiful, filled with laughter everyday. now what i see is just pure

frown on faces. yes! things has changed. time flies so fast, you dont even have time to press the

stop button, or there even a stop button? i looked back all the time, things used to be awesome, used to beautiful, used to be a day where i always look forward for. now i rather not be in those situation. how can life be so pathetic? one minute it could be so awesome, another minute what i see is pain. the minute i see you, i feel the pain rushing through, i know i have to bear with it.

like what the show said, what happen when THINGS like this happen? "i'll do what Jesus do!"

im trying.

dear God,

i dont feel good this few days, i feel broken, i feel distanced from you Lord, i want to come back to You with a heart of worship. not only do i feel distanced from You, i feel distanced from everyone. is like, everyone just vanished from my life. i dont feel me at all. Lord, would you show me the way?

love,

michelle